something i wrote on my LJ a few months ago.

how can people be so critical of others but refuse to take a good look at themselves?

they do not suck as much as you say
and you are not perfect.

take a good look at yourself.
for every time you feel sad or angry,
think of this,
“is this their fault?

or is it mine?”

because if it happens often,
i can bet it’s you who’s at fault.

don’t go around lying and saying things you don’t mean
in an attempt to win people over.

because how long can you keep those people?
how long will it be they really open their eyes and take a good look at you?

i am not perfect.
i do not write things like this to brag about how great i think i am.

in fact, i do not think i am anything close to great.
i am a normal human being
with my good parts and my bad.

you are also a human being
with your good parts and your bad.

do i pick and pick at you,
digging for your bad parts
so that i can spread to others and change their view of you?

no, i do not.

i will keep what i know to myself
until it drives me crazy.

maybe then i will tell a stranger of my feelings.

in the end,
it does not affect you.
you will never know what i have said to this stranger
and this stranger will never know what i was talking about.

do not act like superman.
you do not win over hearts.
you can barely control your own.

do not try to understand me
when you barely understand yourself.

don’t force me to tell you my life,
because it is my life
and i do not force you to tell me yours.

treat others the way you wish to be treated.
shall i treat you the way you treat me?

trust me love, you won’t last even five minutes.

when someone asks you a question,
answer that question.
if you ask why and they do not tell,
do not nag.

if the situation were reversed,
you would wish that the other does not ask anything at all
but simply answers your question.

when someone tells you something,
do not twist their words into a compliment or an insult.
it is what it is.
your opinion is not what matters in this something that was said to you.
it is the original intention that matters.

if the situation were reversed,
you would not want someone to misunderstand.

but then again,
maybe everything i have written here is completely wrong.

maybe i am the confused one,
the one that needs to open her eyes and take a second look at everything.

but at least i can take a good look at myself
and admit to my mistakes
and try and try to become a better person.

you, on the other hand, do not even care.